Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I need to just let it out....



...I'd like to think I am a bit of a "silly goose" most of the time, but another side of me has been surfacing this past summer, and it's time for me to just accept it and let it out. While Cold War Kids blared through my headphones (if you haven't heard of them...find them!), I found myself pouring buckets of tears as this little stitched number was completed.



...You see, I normally create pieces with bits of humour here and there, so creating something quite serious feels foreign to me. So much so, that although this idea has been looming in my head for quite some time now, I have never built up the courage to just "go for it". However, when those tears came rushing out the other night, I realized taking that plunge was much needed. It felt good. It felt therapeutic.

...Our eldest son is going through some difficulties.....difficulties that we have only recently been able to get an official diagnosis for. (although something we have been suspecting for quite some time) It brings not only a sense of relief for knowing that we weren't just seeing things and can now work on understanding him better, but it also raises our concerns as to what lies ahead. We worry. We get scared. We cry.

...And with that came this sewn journal page. The first of many that I need to make, because I need to just let it out.

23 comments:

Amber said...

This piece brings tears. Such a universal feeling as a mother. A sewn journal page like this is just brilliant and lovely. Your work speaks volumes, I can FEEL the emotions when I look at it. So inspirational to me, wondering how I can get in touch with expressing feelings through art again...I seem to have lost it.

Many hugs to you and bravo on letting it out and especially on following your gut with concerns about your son. The first step is understanding and once you are there then you can help guide him. xoxo

Cara Carmina said...

I feel for your tears...
I feel for him...
I feel for your family...

I´m glad for the understanding and the knowledge... everything happens for a reason indeed as we all know and you will know why one day... something that scares us know will make us better and stronger in the future...

Love will bring everything on it´s course.... it´s meant to be...

and everything is the way it should be and everything is all right....

lovely and very deeply sentimental piece! a big hug!

Melissa Crowe said...

Amen! And my dear, the joy and the pain are twins. Of course you know this. They can't live one without the other, and they both belong in your beautiful, touching, necessary art.

PetraO said...

When I read yor words I wanted to cry myself even though I don´t know you or your family - good luck with everything!

Patrice A. said...

What a beautiful piece.
And yes, it brings tears.
I myself have two sons, your work and words came in hard.

I do not know you and have just recently discover your (lovely) work and blog.

Many hugs for you and your family.

Elisabeth Lyngbo Sundell said...

I just love it! Wonderful art and true words, I really like this comibination. I deeply feel for her and her thoughts.

Chantal said...

This is a beautiful piece. I think many people (including myself) can identify with you on this. You have captured the feeling so well.

mummysam said...

oh my goodness!! you are all so lovely...thank you so much for your thoughtful words/input. I was quite the nervous soul posting this, and am so overwhelmed at the response! I do believe that every mother out their can relate, and you have me "teary" eyes again!

pamma said...

bless your heart. You are strong to talk about it and will be strong getting through it.
This piece is amazing and I am so glad it healing to produce it!
It's so important to stay in touch with yourself!
Good thoughts for you,
Pamela

dosfishes said...

How brave you are and as a mother of a now adult son, I can still relate to that moment as if it were now. Brilliant piece and a quiet fierce protectiveness that shines through. Good love and luck to you and your family.

momto2wasd said...

That is a wonderful piece of art. My oldest son was diagnosed with Asperges at age 5. There was definitely a sense of relief that we weren't ruining him and that I might be able to better help him. But your work shows exactly my hopes and fears for my son. He's going into jr high school next week, and he is finding friends in a community of boys like him--he gets together with his friends on Friday nights and it makes me feel so good to start to feel that there really is a place for him in this big world. It may not be the mainstream of the world, but that's totally fine with me. My middle son has severe autism, and that's a little harder to find a "place" for him right now.

Anyhow, I'm not sure why I'm rambling...I guess your art really touched me today as I sent my middle son off on his first day back at school. Hoping that the kids will be accepting of a 9 year old who can't talk and acts really weird. Thank you for sharing!

**EYE-SNACKS** said...

It's not wrong to let the soul into your work..it's a sort of diary then.
It's also you..it's a wonderful piece and fragile.
Hugs for you and your family.

Cheryl G. said...

Hoorah!
I love that piece!
Beautifully said and stitched.
I look forward to getting your book!

Leila said...

That is a beautiful piece. Best of luck with your son.

Leililaloo said...

This is a beautiful piece of post. It says a lot about who you are, a sensitive, caring open mother. Thank you for opening up, and i'll pray for a lot of strenght for you all..

IJ said...

WOW! I love your blog! I'm adding you to my blogroll! Is it OK if I borrow some of your pics in a post?

Have a nice day!

mummysam said...

thanks yet again...I had no idea this would touch so many of you, and it makes me feel good knowing that it had was able to really speak to many a mum out there.
and IJ...thanks so much, and yes! please do...

susan said...

Yet another Mom relating to your beautiful work. I have an adult son who is struggling mightily. I applaud your courage in sharing your art as therapy for you and all of us who seek solace through art making. My heart and best wishes go out to you and your family,

Susan

jacqueline said...

This piece is truely inspiring and it made me a little misty. I could feel your emotion thru your sewn journal. Sending you lots of love and hugs! It's brave to let it out too! Have a lovely merry happy bless day! Love to you!

p/s: i am planning to visit the local bookstore today and see if i could pre-order your lovely fanciful felties book!

Victoria said...

I'm sorry to hear that, but I guess knowing helps a little? I love the piece mind you, it applies to so many situations with children doesn't it.

Škorčica said...

I wish all the best to your family and ecpecially to your son!

I like it how you expressed your deepest feelings and thanks for sharing them. I assume it is not easy to do it. It is an art piece if you ask me!

Good luck!

Elizabeth said...

Oh, Sam, I feel this !! Our oldest son has been through a journey in a few short years. Your art can be felt in the heartstrings. Beautiful!

MUS said...

nice find your blog!